Im not speaking for myself, maybe im speaking for the few or many others who feel this way?
We all know theres a point in life where u feel it sux shit, maybe ur depressed, feel its not going the way it should be or maybe feel it could be better. Some may even rather they die of cancer or some sort of quick death then go through their miserable lives day after day... We all know that its not the best solution, but sometimes you just feel theres no point.. or what else does life have to offer?
Im sure that some of you females have felt that maybe you're not a good enough gf, friend, mother, daughter or wife. Why is this so? could it be because its really true, or that its all just a misunderstanding, or cuz of someone or something else.? I can say they ive had quite a few opportunites that couldve benefited me through my years of breathing life... but why was it that i chose the other route? its like choosing fatty fast food over a healthy home cooked meal.
Have you ever heard a guy say to his friends or to you, that a man should not bring problems from work or money matter back home? Its all a load of bull crap from what i think. When a man starts a stable relationship or is married everything changes, from the way they talk to the way they treat you. To some it could be good and to some it could be bad.
Depression and anger sometimes leads to suicide, or maybe some stupid things may be done. Having someone to talk to, to understand you, could help... but... if only u had that kind of person to let it all out to. Silence and letting all your depressions/unhappiness and emotions roam inside of you could or maybe be the right thing to do...
Some may have experienced getting blown at for doing the things that they do, or maybe getting told off for things that they never intended to happen. People do things for a certain reason, it could be their hobby, likes or thats just the way they are. Not everything a person does is out of pleasure and for others to look at or to please people. Like for example, a person may buy a luxury car, purpose is because they like the quality and comfort... But to others they think that this person bought it for the style, for people to envy and look at. Theres a difference, and whether people choose to think what they wanna think or to maybe evaluate is all up to them.
I think the only person who will understand a person, is they themselves. Me myself and you yourself. No matter how much u try to explain, show your feelings, how hard you work or how much stress you go through... only you yourself will know. People can say they understand... but do they really?
Life is just full of questions waiting to be answered... and mine... may never be answered. That is why, i choose to be silent and either let it burn me into an inferno... or open its doors to happiness.
People say my son looks skinnier.. well its cuz he's been sick.. like twice in a month and a 1/2. Not good at all!!! poor little cutie, it was sad seeing him sick, weak and just not himself.. which is the usual loud, funny & active.
Funny how when i wash and brush his teeth, i dont realise how many are growing cuz he doesnt let me see... but i did get a photo of him trying to smack me lol! Look at all his teeth! like wow! I was laughing at this cuz he just looks so funny :)
Hmmm, i think im in the mood to post photos yay!!! :) Isn't my cutie the cutest little angel teehee! He has alot of facial expressions and most of them would just crack you up and lol :) He's just one in a million and a very funny baby. Gosh... he's growing so fast... treasure ever little moment, cuz it only happens once in a lifetime... even if its the annoying, frustrating, moaning and yelling... ;) :)
Im thinking of getting a new IC done since my current one is practically falling apart! Uknow they should really use better materials when producing such important items. Its like basically peeling off... I am not rough or anything, its usually in my hubbys wallet, and maybe its cuz men put their wallets in their back pockets thus sitting down often ruins it? I think not though... cuz if so, then how come the atm cards and other cards are fine? And my IC has a clear protector cover thingy on it... iono? just fucked it i rekon... they should just make it better! quality wise.
So now imma go get a new one done, cool thing is that i get to change my photo haha!!! i hate my current photo ewww! but i feel special, cuz i had blonde hair in it... and i think you werent allowed to have such colours when applying... so maybe i got lucky just before they made it firm that it was not allowed :)
I think imma go get it done on monday.. gotta wait for my friend to confirm, we're getting it done together, hubby's busy and she also wants to change hers. Imma try to look nice and take a good photo, so hopefully there arent much people there getting theirs done, or it'll suck ass!