★ With you... Dedicated to the LOVE of my Life.
Date: Saturday, January 26, 2008 | Time: 4:56 PM
I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over
the world tonight,
Said the hearts all
over the world
tonight
I need you boo, (ooh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And the hearts all over
the world tonight,
Said the hearts all
over the world
tonight
Ooh, you a stunna
Hot..lil figure,
Yes, you a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And..
Ooh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're..my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind and..
You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
Cuz if I gotchu,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Boy, you're my all.
And..
Oh!
I'm into you,
And boy,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss
and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know I can't
be the only one,
I bet there's hearts
all over the world
tonight,
With the love of their
life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm
With you
I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's
no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I
cannot wait now,
Say..you care for me,
You know..I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know..that I won't lie,
You know..that I would try,
To be your everything..yeah..
Cuz if I got chu,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And yeah..
Oh!
I'm into you,
And boy,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss
and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know I can't
be the only one,
I bet there's hearts
all over the world
tonight,
With the love of their
life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm
And I..
Will never try to deny,
That you were my whole life,
Cuz if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another man,
I just need your
all and nothing,
Cos' if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best
part of my day...
I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over
the world tonight,
Said the hearts all
over the world
tonight
Woo Ooohh.. Yeah~
They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts
all over the world
tonight,
Hearts all over the
world tonight
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Munchkin!!!
Date: | Time: 4:45 PM
My Little Munchkin sitting hehe!!!
My husbands hands look like girl hands :p I envy him lol!
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ My Little Giraffe
Date: Thursday, January 24, 2008 | Time: 11:59 PM
Isnt he so cute!!!
It was a gift from a friend :)
I like the socks... i havent seen cute ones like this while shopping.
I gave him a bath before i took these pics...
He looks chubbier & chubbier everytime i take new pics of him hehe!!!
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Give & Take?
Date: Saturday, January 19, 2008 | Time: 7:36 PM
Dont you just hate the saying "Give & Take"
PS: All this has nothing to do with my Husband.
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Fuck It!!!
Date: | Time: 5:44 PM
Yes Fuck it!
I so sick of this crap!
No one understands how i feel... most people probably think that im at fault and that im wrong. Well i dont think so. I know when im wrong. Even though im a stubborn person, i do apologise if i am wrong.. even if it takes 1/2 a day... 1 day... ill apologise. But this time I AM NOT WRONG, SO IM NOT GONNA APOLOGISE. Why should i? Bcuz of who u are to me? I dont care who the person is to me... if they are wrong then theyre wrong!
I knew that it was gonna end up like this from the beginning... i tried to hold it in... but you burst my last bubble.
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Ugliness!!!
Date: Friday, January 18, 2008 | Time: 11:12 PM
I feel
UGLY! It's probably the whole pregnancy thingy. Changing my mood n shit.
Have you ever felt ugly, you feel so down bout urself... You feel that everyone else looks better than you... You feel really insecure and scared.
I dont regret my pregnancy at all,
I DEFINITELY DONT REGRET HAVING RYAN!
Ryan's a blessing and im thankful that i have him.
I just hate myself right now... When i think bout my insecurities... it makes me sad and makes me wanna cry when i think about what might happen.
If you've never felt Ugly, then you dont know what im talking bout and you dont know how i feel. So shut the fuck up if you're criticizing!
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Erm...
Date: Thursday, January 17, 2008 | Time: 10:58 PM
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......
Where should i start?
Well... GOOD NEWS is that..... "My mum didnt piss me off today" hehe! Strange.. but thank god! Its so wierd... she goes to sleep so freakin early.. lastnight at 7:30pm.. tonight at 9:15pm lol! I can never sleep that early!
Anyway.. i picked her up in kl today... and while waiting at the traffic light... i saw really cute puppies at a pet shop :) They were playing together.. Oh so cute! But not as cute as my little Ryan! :p
Well, my body is lookin abit better... I didnt expect my tummy to shrink that fast.. so now i just look like i have a "spare tyre" lol! not really a spare tyre... just a tummy thats abit noticible... specially when i sit :(
But aside from that... everything else on me looks fine and normal :) And i am glad to say that... my cellulite has gone haha! OMG it was gross before!
I do have stretch marks... But i guess.. i will except it. Its like a medal i got for being a mother :)
I know that some stress bout stretch marks n shit... well i do admit that i did while i was preggy... but anyhow.. in the end, If ur gonna get them, you will.. so except it. Dont freak bout it, cuz it aint gonna change.
If anyone ever mocks or criticizes me bout my marks... I really gonna give them a piece of Ryan's mum!
Im dying to colour my hair... ive been tempted to, but havent yet. Ill wait till after the 1 month thingy. And plus, i dont have time at all to colour my hair right now.
CHRIS, im sorry that i didnt get online the other night... i fell asleep...
SO SORRY!!!!
My little Munchkin pissed at me again... im gettng used to it :) He also pissed at my hubby today lol!
I gave Ryan a bath for the first time today... OMG it was kinda scary... he feels so fragile it scares me sometimes!
He's really getting chubby! His cheekz and chin are getting fat! and i can see it clearly after feeding him.. when he falls asleep in his lazy poses lol!
Again... i LOVE KISSING HIS CHUBBY CHEEKZ!!
He makes the funniest facial expressions, it cracks me up sometimes:)
Lou Gong I LOVE YOU NO MATTER what happens during our times together. I know that after everything and anything that happens... We'll always work it out & It ALWAYS ends with kisses and hugz! I know that You'll ALWAYS LOVE ME, & I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU ....
XOXOXO
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Dedicated...
Date: | Time: 3:54 PM
I know that you've been hurt
I'm here to make this work
I'm not the type to put you down
Just put your trust in me
Don't be afraid to try
I see you're tired of lies
I know you heard this all before
Just put your trust in me
When you're down boy you know you count on me
'Cause I won't let you down
I'm not the type to turn my back whenever you're in need
'Cause I won't let you down
Never let you down
I promise I won't let you down
I know you've been through pain
And that you're used to the game
But you know I'm not the same
So come on and ride with me
You are mine you see
That I'm the one you need
You ain't never worry about a thing
'Cause I got you, I got you
You give us the proper life
If you ever need a cure for the blues I'm the doctor
Remedies I got lots of
Ill do things thatll lift your spirits like come home early get all up in it
I'm a realist, you can be my witness
Baby just ride with my love
Come ride with my love
I wanna be the one who blows ur mind
Youve seen so many girls
But i wanna be the one that none can compare
The one that you cant keep ur eyes off of
I dont have the built and a face like a supermodel
And i dont have a body built just like a coke bottle
i just wanna be that girl 4 you...
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ God dammit!!!
Date: Wednesday, January 16, 2008 | Time: 4:16 PM
Shiet! im so annoyed! dont know why she keeps doing and saying things to piss me off!
Like today, i took her to Kim Gary to eat and as we were about to go in, she said she doesnt wanna eat here.. im like "fine..." I didnt even end up eating anything, cuz i totally lost my apetite!
Then she be telling me dont feed the baby like this, dont put him to sleep like this, dont feed the baby too much, dont dye ur hair any more, dont wear make up... dont this and that blah blah blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck!
Then she be forcing me to have a dinner thing for the baby... uknow that 1 month thingy for babies... And invite relatives that i dont wanna see at all! I told her that THEY arent
my family... theyre
not my parents.. so i dont really care if i see them or not, theyre not important... so i dont give a crap!
I told her we most probably arent having one... its not necessary and not a must!
But no! she keeps making me do one. What the fuck is wrong?
Im really not use to all this control and force put on me...
All this is making me NOT wanna talk to her. And making also not wanna go out with her anywhere!!!
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ LOVE
Date: Tuesday, January 15, 2008 | Time: 10:50 PM
I Love U my little munchkin...
I'll always remember the first time i saw you & you smiled at me...*Tears*
His cute little feet!
I think they look sexy! hehehehehe!!!!
Cute little hands...They really know how to hold on tight!!!
My mum is here now... its only been 2 days, and im already a little annoyed. Like i said before, i dont like people telling me what to do... and its already happened.
Im trying really hard to calm down and keep it in me. And so far... so good.
I just hope i dont burst and say something wrong. Maybe she doesnt mean to... i know... but really... I hope she doesnt piss me off bad!
Anyway... Ryan's skin is looking alot better now... he looks whiter compared to the first few days... thank god that "Yellow skin thingy" has gone!
Even though im really sleepy and he wakes me up with his loud ass cries... i dont mind.. cuz when i get up and look into his crib... i just fall in love all over again!
I love kissing his chubby cheekz! Just like kissable lipz... his cheekz are freakin kissable and u can never get enough!!!
I love smelling him! he's got his own smell. Even after his clothes have been washed... his smell is still there :)
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Poo Poo!
Date: Sunday, January 13, 2008 | Time: 11:22 AM
Ive been awake for a while now (11:22am) Ryan keeps waking up to eat. Like every 1 1/2hrs. He's eating soooo much, im starting to wonder if its normal to eat that much... every feed he'll eat like 3ozs... sometimes a little less if he's sleepy.
I ust want u mummies to know... "Don't buy Mamy Poko Diapers (With Poo poo pockets)" They suck! They arent thick enough, and the urine/poo leaks through the diapers and onto the back of the clothes/pants.
Its happened a few times to me... so im not gonna buy them again. Imma try Huggies ;)
Lastnight... i got pissed at again... i think its revenge hehe! j/k!!
My stitches are healing.... its not as painful as the first few days... but they still hurt every now and then....
I dont wanna look down there... i really dont wanna know what it looks like right now lol!
My hubby said "How u gonna know if uve healed if u dont look down there with the mirror?" I said "I'll know in a few weeks... ill check later.. not now, itll look gross!" hehe!!
He keeps want to see what my tummy looks like. I wont let him see, cuz of my rash marks... its darker than before, cuz my tummy has shrunk. I dont mind the flab.. its the colour of the tummy that puts me off!
When im changing he'll try to peek at my tummy... i told him that ill get MAD if he tries to look at it... I told him my reason.
He's not the type to see something gross on me and not like it uknow. Its me... i dont like what i see, so i wont let him see!
I wish i never got the rashes.... So sad *cries*
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Serenade For You...
Date: | Time: 11:20 AM
Must have been an angel
Sweet spirits raining from above
Shower me with lyrics of love
Blessing me over and over again
So I serenade my song (my song)
My love (my love), for you
And I'll give you my heart, my heart
And I'll serenade for you
Ohh, said it was my destiny
My calling to find my way to you
Something like out of dream
Angels came to me and sang this heavenly song to me
Ohh, my love is true for you
Never have to worry baby
Cuz I got what you need
You'll never be alone
My heart will be your shelter and keep you warm
Need me, feel me, hold me forever and ever
Need me, feel me, hold me forever and ever
I serenade for you
I serenade for you
Serenade for you
I love you both SWEETHEARTS!!! *Muahz!!!*
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Update...
Date: Saturday, January 12, 2008 | Time: 7:01 PM
Im so tierd! We're both tierd!! But its all worth it ;)
Ryan is eating more and more.. more often also :) We took him for a check up today, he's doing OK.. just that we had the AC on a lil too cold.. so he sneezes abit. The doctor did clear his nose for me.. he got out 2 big boogers lol!! Ryan didnt like it, he cried a lil'....
He's put on more weight....
2.45kgs --> 2.4 kgs --> 2.48kgs --> 2.5kgs Im glad, cuz means he's getting more healthier and chubbier!
He's so funny... when he's all full from drinking the milk... he'll fall asleep... and i can see his newly formed double chin hehe! His cheekz are chubbier, when i kiss him i can feel that little lump of meat hehe!!! And he has this lazy pose also... its like he's drunk and really tierd LOL!!! So cute!!!
For the 1st time lastnight.. he didnt cry or scream at all when i changed his diapers... its like he didnt even know he poo pooed lol!
My confinement lady now is very careful... after bathing Ryan, she'll cover his penis with a towel, so that he doesnt aim and piss and her lol!!!
Only 2 more days till my mum comes... oh god i cant wait... but at the same time... im really hoping she doesnt force me to do some things i dont wanna do, or aggravate me.
Seriously i know ya'll are thinking... "C'mon she's ur mum... etc.." But really, everyones parents are different, their way of life are different. So no one knows how it really is.. but you urself.
I havent lived with my parents for SO LONG... im use to being on my own, doing my own things.. the way i like and want to.
Anyhow.. im still glad shes visiting :) and hopefully things go well and we dont argue hehe!!!
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Nothing much...
Date: Thursday, January 10, 2008 | Time: 11:18 PM
Hmmm... I think i didnt mention this in my previous post... but did u know that after i delivered, when i was in my room... i went to the toilet and looked into the mirror... OMG my face was looking wierd! I was patchy red with tiny dots and lotsa pimples had popped out. I was told, cuz when ur pushing out the baby... you push so hard.. it happens.
I was shocked my the way i looked! I was pretty sure i didnt look like that when i left the house. I definitely didnt have that much pimples either.
Anyway... my skin now looks nicer than before i was pregnant ;) Its also softer too!
I went to buy some anti-ageing cream, and the cashier looked at me real wierd! So what uknow! i know i dont have wrinkles n shit... and i know i havent started ageing yet... but i just wanted to try it out... and besides... maybe using it early, will prevent ageing and ill look younger later on hehe!!!!!
While changing Ryans diapers... he pissed and it squirted at me lol! It happened twice!! But the third time it happened, which was lastnight... he squirted at the wall behind him, so he got piss in his hair and on his face lol!
He's so loud when he gets his nappies changed... he hates it! he screams his head off, and his little legs push forward and backwards one by one..moving to the sound of his screams... looks like hes doing exercises hehe! Its so cute!!!
He's eating alot more now.. and more often.... im scared i dont have enough milk lol!
Well... time for me to pump milk again....
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Feelings...
Date: | Time: 12:49 AM
Hmmm...My hubby went out for a short drink just now... he went to a place that i havent been to... so uknow... those thoughts kinda ran through my head. I do trust him, and i know he wont do anything fishy. But i also know that its normal to feel these kinda things once in a while... everyone does no matter how much they love and trust their partner. If u dont feel these kinda things... ur just wierd and maybe u dont love ur partner enough to feel those things.
He came home missing Ryan i know hehe! and me too! (well he better have!)
My baby is sleeping nicely now.. he's been asleep for 2hrs now.. probably be waking up soon... So i better pump some more milk out for him... cuz he'll be waking up alot to get a good feed!
Its nice to see my hubby caring and loving Ryan. I know he's been wanting a child of his own.... and now me finally has one, i know he treasures every sec of his breathing life!
I know he'll do his best to give anything and everything for Ryan...
When i see him feed Ryan its so cute... and sometimes it feels like im totally ignored. Its kinda sad... i got a lil pissed off cuz i felt ignored. I didnt say anything... I guess its normal... a new baby in our family... Ryan gets all the attention, he deserves it and should have it. So i aint mad.... i understand. I just wasnt use to getting ignored... cuz my hubby has never ignored me.
Actually he didnt exactly ignore me... me just wasnt talking to me as much, and when i was talking to him... it was like he wasnt really paying attention to me......
Anyway..... I aint mad... im glad! shows that he's doing his best to be the Best Daddy he can be for Ryan :)
I gtg pump milk... ;)
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Photos Of My Little Prince!
Date: Wednesday, January 9, 2008 | Time: 11:58 PM
I was so happy to get a call from them today... this time it was a lil earlier.. at 10:20am.
She said to come by 12noon to pick him up cuz she has to feed him first.. we arrived at around 11:45am... I went into the nursery to get him... at first i looked at the baby... i was staring hard out.... wondering if it was mine..? lol! why?? bcuz his hair was so messy and curly lol! It was cuz of the eye head band mask they used to cover his eyes from the light. Seriously, his hair was curly... i wasnt sure if it was Ryan... the face looked the same though lol!
So i looked at the name tag, and yes.. he was mine :)
I liked that nurse... shes chinese. Not cuz shes chinese ok! just letting ya'll know. She was the one who thought me how to breastfeed Ryan when i was in hospital. Shes just really nice and polite :) Theres one other nurse i liked... shes Indian... i didnt see her today..
So we took him home.. i was missing him so much for 2 days straight, when he was sleeping in the baby carrier at home, i slept beside him on the carpet. My hubby told me to sleep with him in the room, so we put the carrier on the bed.
But the sad thing is... he doesnt wanna feed from my breast anymore :( *cries*
I think its cuz he's been in the Hospital for 2 days, and everytime he was fed, he was fed from a bottle. So now... he'll feed straight away from the bottle, but when i try to feed him from my breasts... he struggles and cries cuz he cant latch on anymore.
He was doing fine with the breastfeeding thing before he went into hospital... eating and sucking normally. But now... he just cries and cant latch on. Im sad...
So now... i gotta pump out milk more often for him.
He was 2.45kgs at birth, then when he went for his checkup he lost weight 2.4kgs... and after 2 days in the hospital... he gained weight and now is 2.48kgs :)
The nurse told me hes a good sucker lol! he ate 3oz of milk.. when usually he eats 2oz.
Its good, cuz my baby need to gain weight...
He does look healthier now... his hands and face a chubbier:)
But the wierd thing is.. today he only slept a little bit... and was awake most of the time. We fed him kinda like every 2 hrs... he's wanting to eat alot more often. its good... but i really didnt expect such a drastic change in just 2 days....
Here are some of the photos were taken in the dark, i didnt wanna use the flash on my phone... he doesnt like the bright light. So i tried to enhance the lighting a little... its the best i can do :)
He's such a lil cutie!!! I think my the end of this month he'll have more photos than Mimi lol!
I LOVE YOU MUNCHKIN!!!
I LOVE HIS FACIAL EXPRESSIONS...
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Biggest part of me
Date: | Time: 12:53 AM
If you've ever had a broken heart,
You promise yourself to never let it happen again.
Don't wanna think about it.
Don't wanna dream about it,
But it finds its way back into your head.
The "I love you's, I need you's"
Are only words that people say,
They're just words, when they're hand in hand,
With the games that people play, but,
If I ever see the top of the mountain,
If never step my foot in the sea.
I promise you I love you forever,
You'll always be the biggest part of me.
Where ever you are, whatever you do I will follow,
You've changed the way that I used to think.
I promise you I'll love you forever,
You'll always be the biggest part of me.
Take a look at me, I let you have my heart.
I swore I'd never let it happen again.
I'm not mad about it, I'm kinda glad about it,
Cause I know that with you, I can depend.
I believe, yes I believe,
I believe in love again,
And I swear, I'll always be there.
Isn't this the way that it should be...
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Come home soon...
Date: | Time: 12:13 AM
I got a call from the nurse at 10:30am yesterday... when my phone rang, i was so anxious and excited i dropped the phone hehe! But sadly... Ryan wasnt allowed to come home... had to stay another day :(
So i pumped somemore milk for him, then we took it to him in the afternoon.
Luckily that bitch nurse wasnt around :D it was that nice nurse :) We looked at him for a while... he was sleeping :) I touched his little feet and tiny plump cheekz... then he started to make sounds like he was gonna wake up... my hubby said he probably can hear ur voice... wow! he recognises our voices!
The nurse asked us if we gave him a pacifier or if we held him if he cried for no reason, we said no. She said "Oh... his voice/crying is very loud, sometimes he wakes up the baby next to him. sometimes Tak Boleh Tahan...." lol! Well.. our baby does have a high pitched scream when he cries hehe! You should hear him in the early morning when everyone is still sleeping... i think my neighbours can hear him too Lmao :p
He goes totally red from head to toe when he cries hard out lol ;)
Well... all i have to do now is pack some of his stuff for when he comes home, and go to sleep... then HOPEFULLY ill get a wake up call from them, telling me Ryan can leave. *Crosses fingers & toes*
God i miss him so so so much!
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ Ryan's Videos
Date: Monday, January 7, 2008 | Time: 10:27 PM
♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸ V3nniV3ttiVecci ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪
★ The LOVE of our life
Date: | Time: 9:31 PM
My little Munchkin!
Oh i love him SO MUCH!!!!
He's so tiny! Only 2.45kgs.
The delivery was HELL! But it was so worth the pain ache.
I started my labour/dialate at 8:30am, and started pushing him out at nearly 12noon. It took me about 20 minutes and i was done. Thank god, cuz i thought it would take hours... as i couldnt hold my pushes long enough and kept letting go. It hurt so much, its so hard to explain how it feels. I remember when the doctor told me to stop pushing... that was when i felt my vagina hurt.. cuz my baby was half way out and ready for the doc to pull him out.
When people say that you cant feel the pain of ur vagina stretching while the baby is coming out, cuz the pain in ur cervix/ tummy hurt so fucken much, u dont realise the pain of ur vagina... its true. When the doc pulled him out, i sighed with relief.. that it was all over.
But no.. it was all over. Cuz i had to take more pain of him stitching me up!
I didnt even realise the doc made a cut on me for the opening to be bigger (so i dont tear)
When the nurse put my baby on me... i touched him, and she said "Dont touch... he's dirty!" lol... so what... im already dirty damit!
I was waiting, while being stitched up to see what my baby looked like... i wanted to see properly... all i could hear was him crying his little heart out...
When she finally took him in for me to see... i said "OOooooHHhhh... He's SO CUTE! " -Then i touched his tiny cheeks... Then my baby SMILED AT ME then started to cry again.
OMG!, u wouldnt believe and or feel how i felt when he smiled at me... Its like, he knew i was his mummy :) All that feeling and it only lasted 10 seconds!
cuz the damn nurse took him away again!
I only stayed one day in the hospital and could leave the next day.
Living in the hospital sux! cuz u can never get a good sleep. Nurses and cleaners keep coming in and out all the time... the food is gross, they give u food ur not suppose to eat (according to the chinese tradition) anyway, my hubbys friends wife did make me some food, so i didnt have to eat the crappy hospital food.
Knowing im not suppose to take a shower for some time after delivery, i actually took some shower gel, hoping that ill take a shower. But instead i didnt at all, cuz i felt so cold. hehe!
But i did wash my hair on the 3rd day... i cant stand an itchy dirty smelly head.
Here comes the sad news.....
My little Munchkin had and review appointment today (His 4th day of life) and sadly he had yellow skin, most newborns get it i heard. He had to get a blood test, and the damn doc poked his tiny foot with a thick needle! He cried so bad!
I was hoping the blood test would be ok, but it wasnt... so we took him to the Maternity ward for him to get lighted. I dont know what its really called, but the baby gets shone by some UV light to make the skin better.
The nurse told me itll probably take 2 days. Ok.. all this im ok with it...
But was made me cry, was seeing how they treated my baby.
They were so rough.. actually its this ONE indian nurse.
To me, it seems and looks like she dont give a shit about how fragile a newborn is. It hurt me so much to see the way my baby was treated. I was gonna cry, but i didnt i just got teary.
And that nurse was so rude to me... I didnt even get to give him my last kiss goodbye.. the last i saw of him was him crying his little lungs out. (He doesnt like to be naked)
When i went out to my hubby, i started crying and told him what happened in there.
He said i shoulda said something or gave the face to that nurse... but i told him that we shouldnt do or say anything yet.. cuz our baby is still in the hospital and that nurse might do something to him or not take proper care of him... she can if she wanted to cuz theres no one around.. so no one will know what goes on.
Were probably gonna make a complaint about her.. but after our baby is in our hands.
When i was admitted into the maternity lab.. that nurse was the one who took down my details also... she was so rude that time my hubby already hated her.
Actually... when i came out after seeing my baby for the last time... before i cried to my hubby, He did ask me "What that nurse rude to you?"
Anyway... When we got home i was still crying.. i couldnt stop thinking bout how they /she might treat my poor lil baby.... I pumped out a bottle of breast milk then we went back to the hospital and gave it to them.
Luckily that nurse wasnt there, It was a different nurse.
My hubby was able to go in also :) He wasnt allowed to go in before cuzza that bitch!
The other nurse was very nice and polite :) I was relieved.
Relieved to see that my baby was ok and sleeping well... and that another nurse was taking care of him. I know that bitch does Morning shifts...
Anyhow, ive pumped out somemore milk, and we'll be going back tomorrow to see Ryan again. I really hope he can come home tomorrow... I miss him so fucken much i wanna cry now :(
I dont wanna look at his photos, cuz i know ill cry and miss him... ok.. im crying again now...
Thats all for now...
Enjoy my baby's photos....
Ryan, mummy and daddy miss you so much.. come home soon :(
In daddys arms
In mummys arms
On the way home
Thinking...
OOoOohh
Hey! Like my pose?(I didnt put him like this.)
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★ It's Finally Time To Come Out!!!
Date: Friday, January 4, 2008 | Time: 12:22 AM
I'll be going to the hospital at 7:30am today hehe!!!
I went to see the doc earlier on, and he checked my cervix, and told me " You're 3cms dialted... u can give birth soon! Wanna come in tomorrow?"
We were happy, surprised and anxious! its so soon... we just said "OK"
I wonder what its gonna feel like? Im happy and scared at the same time.... I just want my labour to be real fast, cuz i really wanna see my baby!!! I wanna hold him and cuddle him :)
I called my mum to tell her the good news, it was around 3am New Zealand time there... she was obviously alseep... but she sounded wide awake real fast hehe!
Both my mum n dad told me to get my hubby to call them after the baby comes out.
Oh! my baby is kicking me now (12:29am) maybe he's telling me... "Im coming out soon... u better be ready for me!!" Lmao!
Well.... i'll update on news and pics when i get home :)
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