My little Munchkin!
Oh i love him SO MUCH!!!!
He's so tiny! Only 2.45kgs.
The delivery was HELL! But it was so worth the pain ache.
I started my labour/dialate at 8:30am, and started pushing him out at nearly 12noon. It took me about 20 minutes and i was done. Thank god, cuz i thought it would take hours... as i couldnt hold my pushes long enough and kept letting go. It hurt so much, its so hard to explain how it feels. I remember when the doctor told me to stop pushing... that was when i felt my vagina hurt.. cuz my baby was half way out and ready for the doc to pull him out.
When people say that you cant feel the pain of ur vagina stretching while the baby is coming out, cuz the pain in ur cervix/ tummy hurt so fucken much, u dont realise the pain of ur vagina... its true. When the doc pulled him out, i sighed with relief.. that it was all over.
But no.. it was all over. Cuz i had to take more pain of him stitching me up!
I didnt even realise the doc made a cut on me for the opening to be bigger (so i dont tear)
When the nurse put my baby on me... i touched him, and she said "Dont touch... he's dirty!" lol... so what... im already dirty damit!
I was waiting, while being stitched up to see what my baby looked like... i wanted to see properly... all i could hear was him crying his little heart out...
When she finally took him in for me to see... i said "OOooooHHhhh... He's SO CUTE! " -Then i touched his tiny cheeks... Then my baby SMILED AT ME then started to cry again.
OMG!, u wouldnt believe and or feel how i felt when he smiled at me... Its like, he knew i was his mummy :) All that feeling and it only lasted 10 seconds!
cuz the damn nurse took him away again!
I only stayed one day in the hospital and could leave the next day.
Living in the hospital sux! cuz u can never get a good sleep. Nurses and cleaners keep coming in and out all the time... the food is gross, they give u food ur not suppose to eat (according to the chinese tradition) anyway, my hubbys friends wife did make me some food, so i didnt have to eat the crappy hospital food.
Knowing im not suppose to take a shower for some time after delivery, i actually took some shower gel, hoping that ill take a shower. But instead i didnt at all, cuz i felt so cold. hehe!
But i did wash my hair on the 3rd day... i cant stand an itchy dirty smelly head.
Here comes the sad news.....
My little Munchkin had and review appointment today (His 4th day of life) and sadly he had yellow skin, most newborns get it i heard. He had to get a blood test, and the damn doc poked his tiny foot with a thick needle! He cried so bad!
I was hoping the blood test would be ok, but it wasnt... so we took him to the Maternity ward for him to get lighted. I dont know what its really called, but the baby gets shone by some UV light to make the skin better.
The nurse told me itll probably take 2 days. Ok.. all this im ok with it...
But was made me cry, was seeing how they treated my baby.
They were so rough.. actually its this ONE indian nurse.
To me, it seems and looks like she dont give a shit about how fragile a newborn is. It hurt me so much to see the way my baby was treated. I was gonna cry, but i didnt i just got teary.
And that nurse was so rude to me... I didnt even get to give him my last kiss goodbye.. the last i saw of him was him crying his little lungs out. (He doesnt like to be naked)
When i went out to my hubby, i started crying and told him what happened in there.
He said i shoulda said something or gave the face to that nurse... but i told him that we shouldnt do or say anything yet.. cuz our baby is still in the hospital and that nurse might do something to him or not take proper care of him... she can if she wanted to cuz theres no one around.. so no one will know what goes on.
Were probably gonna make a complaint about her.. but after our baby is in our hands.
When i was admitted into the maternity lab.. that nurse was the one who took down my details also... she was so rude that time my hubby already hated her.
Actually... when i came out after seeing my baby for the last time... before i cried to my hubby, He did ask me "What that nurse rude to you?"
Anyway... When we got home i was still crying.. i couldnt stop thinking bout how they /she might treat my poor lil baby.... I pumped out a bottle of breast milk then we went back to the hospital and gave it to them.
Luckily that nurse wasnt there, It was a different nurse.
My hubby was able to go in also :) He wasnt allowed to go in before cuzza that bitch!
The other nurse was very nice and polite :) I was relieved.
Relieved to see that my baby was ok and sleeping well... and that another nurse was taking care of him. I know that bitch does Morning shifts...
Anyhow, ive pumped out somemore milk, and we'll be going back tomorrow to see Ryan again. I really hope he can come home tomorrow... I miss him so fucken much i wanna cry now :(
I dont wanna look at his photos, cuz i know ill cry and miss him... ok.. im crying again now...
Thats all for now...
Enjoy my baby's photos....
Ryan, mummy and daddy miss you so much.. come home soon :(

In daddys arms
In mummys arms
On the way home
Thinking...
OOoOohh

Hey! Like my pose?(I didnt put him like this.)
